And..she took everything...

The bags were packed. Everything was set. She had been packing for almost a week now. Looking at her bags, no one could have believed the fact that she stayed in a hostel. It was her last day in Mumbai.  

She was not only leaving the city she loved, she was leaving much more than that. She was leaving her college days, the known roads, her work place, her hostel room, her favorite shopping places, her frequently visited restaurants, her hangout locations, the known smiles, the friendly waves, the no reason high fives, the warm hugs, just everything!  

She was leaving seven years of all this, but most importantly she was leaving her friends, who stood by her through thick and thin.         

She stood on the platform waiting for the train to move, her face showcased a mix of all emotions. A bit of excitement, a bit of nervousness, a bit of tension...but a small tinge of happiness sparkled in her eyes. Why? Because she finally had after a year's effort secured admission for post graduation in her desired university abroad.  

Heaps of portfolio work, lots of documentation, trips to educational departments and banks.The tension of the loan and the visa. It was a never ending process. What mattered was, that she was getting an inch closer to her dream now.  

But was she really leaving everything. No, I dont think so. She was carrying much more than what she left behind. A sense of independence she felt after she stepped into the city alone, the bond she made with people around, the important principles in life that the city taught her. She was taking hearts of friends along with her, she was taking blessings and of course a thing that no one could snatch away from her.... ever lasting memories.

- Dedicated to my dearest friend Kajal. 

When in your Arms...

When in your arms
I get a feeling of security
Its you who possesses me
Its you who owns me

When in your arms
There's no sense of time
The clock just stops
There is no past, no future
Only this one moment

When in your arms
I feel the world close to my heart
The feeling of being held
of being loved in just one gesture

When in your arms
All I feel is your warmth
your heartbeats, your fragrance
Just want to absorb it all.
That you shall not let go of me
Protect me, shield me forever.
That I am your angel and
you are my wings.

A reason to Live

Give me a reason to smile,
Give me a reason to laugh,
Give me a reason to love,
A reason to live.
as my only smile was you,
those silly things you did,
those stupid faces you made me laugh with.
as you were the one who taught me to live,
to feel, to experience the purity of love.
All the moments with you are mere
memories for others.
But for me, they are the only thing I have been left with.
Give me a reason to love.
A reason to live.
A reason to find the butterfly called hope again.

What If ?

Why dont you laugh till your stomach hurts.
Why are you so rigid.
So calculative of what you say and what you dont....loosen up.
What if.....today's your last day.

Why dont you express your love more often.
Why dont you kiss your wife before you leave for work,
and hug your children when you are back.
A simple gesture of love, a small pat on your friend's back
is all what it takes.
Fill your life with love.
What if.....today's your last day.

Why dont you forgive quickly
Why do you hold grudges unnecessarily.
Forgive and forget.
What if.....today's your last day.

Miss You MAA.

Never saw your face, but somehow I know
You must have been beautiful.
The words which came out of your lips,
must have been soft and sweet.
Yours gestures must have been warm.
Your touch so gentle....
Till a time I never knew this kind of love existed...
But now when I look around and my eyes dont find you..
I know I miss you Maa.
I'm blessed with so much love and affection,
but nothing compared to what you could have showered upon me
I miss your warm hugs.
I miss your scoldings.
Whenever I get a medal,
I miss the twinkle in your eyes.
Whenever Im down with failure,
I miss that pat on my back which says
Its gonna be allrite.
Somehow I just cant stop wishing about you being there with me today.
What I really miss is probably the pride on your face...

of being my Mother...

PAIN

How is it possible that you feel a pain
without actually getting physically hurt..
Pain is such an emotion,
where you loose your senses.
You become numb.
Shattered, helpless.
You try hard to rise up and get back on your feet
Try harder to even find some hope.
But the pain is strong.
It makes you fall on your knees.
You have nothing else but loneliness.
You try hard to act brave,
but all in vain
Something within is so painful
that it feels as if some hundred pins are piercing
through your heart.
People say time is the only solution.
I want to believe it.
I try and put my belief to test
and leave everything on time, the best healer.

Breakaway

I was thinking about a special song , a song that describes me. 
Heard this song by Kelly Clarkson some days back...
and I instantly fell in love with it.
I want to dedicate this song to myself and to those 
who come from small towns and have big dreams.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway