Saturday, July 31, 2010

Painful Love



For me, you were the only one.
for  you, I was one of them.

I loved you with all my soul
and you did'nt even bother to care.

I proved my love again and again,
what I got in return was suffering and pain.

I know you hurt me, yet I could'nt stop loving you,
and you were unaware, lost in your ignorance.

I was there waiting for you, hoping you would return,
but you did not even care to turn.

Its now, that I know I have to move ahead.
Its painful to the core, but I learnt more..

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Perspective

It technically means a particular attitude towards or way of regarding something; a point of view’.                              
Let me give an example in simple words. If A has a particular opinion about an issue, B has a totally different opinion. Now if you have to judge who is right and who is wrong how will you judge? Your decision will be based on your experiences, background, teachings, surroundings, beliefs, values and the culture around you.
For many of us it is difficult to understand the view point of another person. This is because our logic and the above mentioned factors don’t allow our brain to understand it. But if we have to accept a person, it should be with his individual perspective.
To explain this better, I would like to share a story told by Mr. Devdutta Pattanaik, a well known mythologist.   
This is when Alexander the great had already set his mighty foot in India. One day he met a Monk who was meditating. Alexander wondered and asked what he was doing.
The monk slowly opened his eyes, smiled and said “I m experiencing nothingness”. Now he looked carefully at Alexander and asked “What are you doing”? To this the king replied, “I m conquering the whole world”. After this, both just looked at each other and smiled.
Now if we think about this story a little deeply, this may be called diverse viewpoints. What made Alexander decide what his aim in life was? He was taught about Homer’s Iliad and was told stories about the mighty warrior Achilles. He was also taught to be heroic, aim for impossible things, win them, not to be monotonous and mediocre.This is because as per Greek mythology, there is only one life and that life had to be spectacular.

                                
Now on the other hand, the Monk had heard stories of king Bharat. This king once climbed the  peak of Mount Meru, which is considered the highest and the centre of the earth in Hindu mythology. King Bharat was carrying a flag and wanted to mark the peak, so that everyone would know that he was the first to climb the mighty mountain. But when he reached the peak, he saw countless flags already waving there. His ego was crushed, his victory felt meaningless.The monk learnt from this that everything is temporary and nothing lasts forever.

                                 

He was living in a land where the concept of rebirth was deeply believed in, that life was not just lived once, but is actually a cycle and if you have to break the cycle, you need to enlighten yourself and surrender to the almighty.
So when Alexander heard the monk’s answer, he must have thought what a waste of a life and smiled. Similarly the monk must have thought whats the use of conquering, when nothing lasts forever.                                                                                                                         

Sunday, April 18, 2010

FIRST TIME


Why is the first time so important? Why is it so memorable?
A few of the the first times that I will always recall..

First time I rode a bicycle.
Feeling of persistence, perseverance.. (did'nt know the meaning then)

First time I spoke in front of a crowd,
Feeling of being shit scared... (actually).

First time I wore a saree,
Feeling of irritation..

First time I got my pay,
Feeling of independence and achievement..

First time I experienced snow,
Feeling of pure joy..

First time I gained strength from praying,
Feeling of my inner god..

First time I refused getting bullied and actually hit the person (Mind you it was the last time...)
Feeling of fearlessness

First time I saw my drawings turn into real structures,
Feeling the joy of creation

There are so many such first times in all our lives..
They could relate to any of our feelings of anger, love, happiness, joy, excitement, fear..
Let’s take out some time to remember and cherish each of those FIRST TIMES...




(photo courtesy mansing shinde)

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Wait


Why am I waiting,
What am I waiting for,
Who am I waiting for,
All these years, through summers,winters and the rains, I'm still waiting.
Am I waiting to complete my incompleteness,
Am I waiting to lighten the darkness,
Am I waiting to fill in the space where there is vacuum.
After all these questions..one thing remains a mystery.
What if my wait doesn't fulfill my expectations..
But then, hope is all that I have, one of my prized possessions.
I believe that waiting for anything makes you realize the importance of your wait.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Language of EYES


They say what cant be said by words, can be expressed through eyes.
whats the language of eyes..
There are all kinds of eyes..
There are eyes full of hope,
Some full of questions wanting to pierce through you.
There are shy eyes, some mischievous.
There are smiling eyes or some even full of disappointments.
The same set of eyes can speak so much.
When they look down, you know they are guilty,
When they are full of tears but refuse to let them free, you know they are hiding something sad.
When they look through the corners, you know they are interested in you.
and..when they look directly into yours you know they love you.
To feel all this, you need to open your eyes and observe and not just see....

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

QUESTIONS

I often ask myself these questions,
Who am I? What is my purpose?
But every time all I get is ...one more question.
Confusion and chaos.....
Some questions are not meant to be answered I guess!
But I still do not give up.
I m stubborn want my answers,
I ask who can answer me...
I hear a little voice inside me saying “Only God”
My next question...Where do I find god,
Do I chant, or do I meditate
The voice inside me is no longer little,
It has raised...”God’s inside you, and nowhere else”

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

25 random things about me...




1. I am an extremely shy person, I take time to open up and make friends, but when I do they are life long friends.
2. I am a total family person. Respect, Values, Tradition, Culture mean a lot to me.
3. I always wanted to be a teacher, and still have a dream that someday ill teach.
4. I have changed three schools. I was a total tomboy in the first two. I think the last school made me a bit girlish as it was an all girl’s school.
5. I hate Math’s, or rather I have Math phobia.
6. I am terrified of crowded places especially local trains.
7. I prefer a calm, slow quite lifestyle to a hectic chaotic one.
8. I have accepted the fact that I m lazy.
9. I am spiritual. I totally believe in the existence of god. Praying gives me strength.
10. I strongly believe that the journey is more important than the destination. I make it a point to be happy everyday, rather than searching for happiness which is related to events.
11. I love daydreaming.
12. I love playing, be it indoor, outdoor or adventurous sports.
13. I hate shopping and am unknown to the art of bargaining. But I love shopping gifts for others.
14. I have a terrible stage fright.
15. I can cry at a drop of a hat, be it a movie, any serial or even a song.
16. I am a good listener.
17. I usually don’t involve myself in controversies and fights. I stay away from negative people and simply behave as if they are invisible.
18. I love spicy food. I can have a pizza at any given time.
19. Ill never say no for a movie.
20. I simply love watches and perfumes.
21. I can’t imagine my life without books. I need to read all the time, but then it need not be a highly intellectual read always.
22. I am fond of silver jewelry.
23. Ten years from now, I look at myself volunteering for various social services, and issues.
24. I am an extremist. I either love something or totally hate it. There is no in between.
25. I can make some people happy all the time,I can make all the people happy some times,But I can’t make all the people happy all the time