PAIN

How is it possible that you feel a pain
without actually getting physically hurt..
Pain is such an emotion,
where you loose your senses.
You become numb.
Shattered, helpless.
You try hard to rise up and get back on your feet
Try harder to even find some hope.
But the pain is strong.
It makes you fall on your knees.
You have nothing else but loneliness.
You try hard to act brave,
but all in vain
Something within is so painful
that it feels as if some hundred pins are piercing
through your heart.
People say time is the only solution.
I want to believe it.
I try and put my belief to test
and leave everything on time, the best healer.

Breakaway

I was thinking about a special song , a song that describes me. 
Heard this song by Kelly Clarkson some days back...
and I instantly fell in love with it.
I want to dedicate this song to myself and to those 
who come from small towns and have big dreams.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Magnetic Pull

Suddenly everyone seems happy
Everything starts feeling awesome
Every bit is beautiful
The mornings, the afternoons,
the eves and the nights.
The air smells so sweet
Everything around is pure joy
Its just you and your magnetic pull.

Its an unknown feeling.
I loose my mind
I loose my senses

My heart, my thoughts.
Its just you and your magnetic pull.

I know I have to wake up
But I refuse!
I m enjoying being flown away.
I want to stop,
But its just you and your magnetic pull.

Painful Love

For me, you were the only one.

for  you, I was one of them.

I loved you with all my soul

and you did'nt even bother to care.

I proved my love again and again,

what I got in return was suffering and pain.

I know you hurt me, yet I could'nt stop loving you,

and you were unaware, lost in your ignorance.

I was there waiting for you, hoping you would return,

but you did not even care to turn.

Its now, that I know I have to move ahead.

Its painful to the core, but I learnt more..

Perspective

It technically means a particular attitude towards or way of regarding something; a point of view’.                              

Let me give an example in simple words. If A has a particular opinion about an issue, B has a totally different opinion. Now if you have to judge who is right and who is wrong how will you judge? Your decision will be based on your experiences, background, teachings, surroundings, beliefs, values and the culture around you.

For many of us it is difficult to understand the view point of another person. This is because our logic and the above mentioned factors don’t allow our brain to understand it. But if we have to accept a person, it should be with his individual perspective.

To explain this better, I would like to share a story told by Mr. Devdutta Pattanaik, a well known mythologist.   

This is when Alexander the great had already set his mighty foot in India. One day he met a Monk who was meditating. Alexander wondered and asked what he was doing.

The monk slowly opened his eyes, smiled and said “I m experiencing nothingness”. Now he looked carefully at Alexander and asked “What are you doing”? To this the king replied, “I m conquering the whole world”. After this, both just looked at each other and smiled.

Now if we think about this story a little deeply, this may be called diverse viewpoints. What made Alexander decide what his aim in life was? He was taught about Homer’s Iliad and was told stories about the mighty warrior Achilles. He was also taught to be heroic, aim for impossible things, win them, not to be monotonous and mediocre.This is because as per Greek mythology, there is only one life and that life had to be spectacular.

                                

Now on the other hand, the Monk had heard stories of king Bharat. This king once climbed the  peak of Mount Meru, which is considered the highest and the centre of the earth in Hindu mythology. King Bharat was carrying a flag and wanted to mark the peak, so that everyone would know that he was the first to climb the mighty mountain. But when he reached the peak, he saw countless flags already waving there. His ego was crushed, his victory felt meaningless.The monk learnt from this that everything is temporary and nothing lasts forever.

                                 

He was living in a land where the concept of rebirth was deeply believed in, that life was not just lived once, but is actually a cycle and if you have to break the cycle, you need to enlighten yourself and surrender to the almighty.

So when Alexander heard the monk’s answer, he must have thought what a waste of a life and smiled. Similarly the monk must have thought whats the use of conquering, when nothing lasts forever.                                                                                                                         

FIRST TIME

Why is the first time so important? Why is it so memorable?

A few of the the first times that I will always recall..

First time I rode a bicycle.

Feeling of persistence, perseverance.. (did'nt know the meaning then)

First time I spoke in front of a crowd,

Feeling of being shit scared... (actually).

First time I wore a saree,

Feeling of irritation..

First time I got my pay,

Feeling of independence and achievement..

First time I experienced snow,

Feeling of pure joy..

First time I gained strength from praying,

Feeling of my inner god..

First time I refused getting bullied and actually hit the person (Mind you it was the last time...)

Feeling of fearlessness

First time I saw my drawings turn into real structures,

Feeling the joy of creation

There are so many such first times in all our lives..
They could relate to any of our feelings of anger, love, happiness, joy, excitement, fear..

Let’s take out some time to remember and cherish each of those FIRST TIMES...




(photo courtesy mansing shinde)

Wait

Why am I waiting,

What am I waiting for,

Who am I waiting for,

All these years, through summers,winters and the rains, I'm still waiting.

Am I waiting to complete my incompleteness,

Am I waiting to lighten the darkness,

Am I waiting to fill in the space where there is vacuum.

After all these questions..one thing remains a mystery.

What if my wait doesn't fulfill my expectations..

But then, hope is all that I have, one of my prized possessions.

I believe that waiting for anything makes you realize the importance of your wait.